Sorry so long.....

I have been terribly busy the past few weeks. I have been sewing and baking for people at church to make some extra Christmas money. Sorry I've been gone so long. Right now I am in crunch time trying to get the girls Christmas dresses done for church tomorrow morning. I am done with Emma's and am about 1/4 the way done with Hannah's. I will post more when I have more time. I hope to do a little bit tomorrow. I am all done shopping and after church all I need to do tomorrow is wrap presents. So....if I get a chance I will make a catch up post. Later Gaters! Love, Kai!!

Off we go...

I am starting to follow my daily schedual tomorrow. I wrote it out down to when I do what things. I sure am hoping I will be able to do this. I'm a bit worried I won't be able to do this and have a hard time following up.
I made a nice dinner this evening. Homemade mac and cheese with sliced smoked sausage in it, beets, and garlic bread. It was yummy. I was also good and cleaned up after. Did the dishes, wiped down the counters, table and stove. And swept. It is a step towards getting off on a good foot tomorrow. I am about to go and layout everyone's clothes for the morning and maybe lay down and watch tv with Emma for a while. I am very tired tonight. I am also going to do a quick sort of the laundry so I can start on my laundry schedual tomorrow as well. I have each day broken down into different things to wash....Like, tomorrow will be bedding and towles...aka linen. Then all the other days have a person's clothes to be done with Joshua doing his things on Saturday. I am also hoping that if I know what I am supposed to be doing each day I will be more likely to do it. Thing with me is I always feel so lost. I don't know where to start and just get bogged down feeling overwhelmed. I really am hoping that a strict structure will help me know what to do when and I will feel better able to handle things around here.
Wish me luck. Night all. Love, Kai.

Happy Thanksgiving Y'all!

Just want to wish you all a wonderful Thanksgiving day and hope you have as much to be thankful for as I do. Love, Kai

Accomplishments for 11/17/06

Today ended up being another bad day. But...I'm not going to dwell on it. It is just a fact that is. So.....I didn't get much done. On top of being a bad day, I was in pain and unable to accomplish much. I spent most of the afternoon on a heating pad. I didn't manage to get the things done yesterday that I wanted to, and didn't get to them today either, but they are there and will eventually happen.

What did get done was the dishes are still all finished, cuz I did them just now. I didn't do alot of cooking today, so I only had one load...plus the kids eat on styrafoam plates and that helps a bunch. I made dinner of loaded baked potatoes with all the fixins and some green beans and spinich on the side. Easy peasy...just baked the taters, fried up some bacon and warmed up the veggies. Before I head to bed here in a minuet I will be having the kids help my re-pick up the LR so that it is clean before bed. That's all that got done today. But it's better than nothing.

GOALS FOR TOMORROW:
Keep up with the dishes and living room pick up.
Clean off "Crap" counter.
Start on embelishing Hannah's dance recital that have to be done by Wed.
Prepare for Church on Sunday.

That's it for now. I'm going to bed now. Later Gaters. Love, Kai!

Accomplishments for 11/16/06

So....even though I am still very upset about the happenings of last night. And even though I am scared and worried...I am still concentrating on getting my home in order. I am taking baby stepping toward my goal. I am overwhelmed and frustrated, but I know it will come with time... Gosh...I sure hope it comes with time. So....this said...I am going to be posting my daily accomplishments so I can see what I have done.

I got Josh and Josh their lunches. I have done all...and that's...ALL...the dishes up. They were kinda backed up and now they are completely finished. I went to Walmart and got 2 utility selves to use as sort of dressers for Caleb and Hannah. I plan on working on my bedroom tonight while I watch Survivor and CSI:. And hopefully I will be able to get the shelves up on the counter and all stocked with the clean clothes I have folded on the dryer. I know I haven't done much today, but I have a screamer of a headache. But....I do plan to do more. UMMM...I may start doing a what I accomplished yesterday in the mornings so I can put it all down. I don't usually get a chance to get on this thing in the evenings. Anyway...that's all for now. Later Gaters. Love, Kai!

FUBAR

Just when all seems to be looking up.....just when I think I'm on a roll and starting to pull my head out of my ass and that we were going to be ok cuz Mark is working again. Just when I am now starting to enjoy the holidays I was dreading cuz I didn't know where Christmas was going to come from. Just when I thought my husband might have been able to get back to the place he wanted to be. Just when I thought I could relax, breath, feel good again if even for a brief moment......Things get all forked up!!! I am sooooo upset. Mark got a call from the temp agency that hired him for the bank job he started just 3 days ago....and they said the bank no longer needed his services. The reason being that he didn't show enough initive....????? Well....Hmmm....no one told him what they wanted of him. The didn't give him his own drawer. They didn't give him any kind of "training" because they were going to change their systems over...UM...TODAY. So for the first 2 days he didn't have much to do and today there wasn't much business cuz of the weather. We are both very upset....we had a huge fight...and I am at a loss. I just want to curl up and disapear. As I am sure he does as well. What next? How much more of this can we take? Where is He? Kai

This is my new Mascot....

I'm calling her Holly Homemaker......

I did not sleep....

At all last night. I have so many thoughts and ideas that my brain just won't shut up. I honestly was awake all night long.
The main theme that has been running around in my head has been it's time to grow up and get busy. I have waisted the last 19 years waiting around for someone else to live my life for me. Someone else to do the work. Well......no one else is going to do it. I can't control or change anyone else but myself. Well, it's time. I have decide that I am going to need to make myself a very strict structured plan to help me take care of the things I need to take care of. I believe that in the structure I will find freedom....at least that is my hope. There will be several steps to my plan and as soon as I get them all hammered out I will post them. I will be using my blog as a sounding board for my ideas....don't know if anyone will even read them, but I don't really care too much. It's more for me than anyone else anyway. When I have a better idea of what the steps to my plan are I will be back. Later Gaters! Love, Kai!!!

A quick update....well, kinda quick....

As per Miss Kayla's request...I am updating my blog. It was a rough day, and I am not going to go into details because I am just now getting over an upsetting incident that happened this morning, but suffice it to say....It was a less that stellar day. I am tired and sad, and determined to make tomorrow a better day.

Anyway.....Off to the good news....Actually the GREAT news!! As I posted a while back, my husband lost his job. Well....As of yesterday...He is now gainfully employed. And the best part is that he was able to get back into the banking industry....Which he likes so much more than retail. And if any of you out there have worked in retail, you know it is only one step up from working Fast food with even worse hours and treatment by upper management. I am soooo happy and proud that he was able to go out and find this job and now be able to take care of us in a way that he both enjoys and is proud of. I just send up a prayer that this place will be good for him and he will be able to do what he needs and wants to do. In the Name of Jesus Christ, Amen!

Okay....Now....Lets see.....I have been on the Prozac for a while now, and I AM feeling better, but I am still not doing all the things I both need and want to do. I am trying, but I am failing most of the time. I desire to get both my home and life in more order. I have the sincere feeling and hope that if I do this I will help my husband be the man, husband, and father he wants to and was ment to be. I love him and want to be his help, and not his hindrance. And I feel that is all I have ever been to him. So...It's time to grow up, and step up. GOD HELP ME!!! So...I am going to be honest here. Flat out and bold face and up front. This place is a wreck. It has always been a wreck. I am not good at organizing things and I am very very bad about procrastinating. I have come to realize the the key to any kind of peace is going to be getting organized. The past few days I have been good about getting everything together for both Mark to go to work and the kids ready for school all the night before. That is a big deal for me. I haven't been able to do that very well in the past and it really makes the mornings alot easier for everyone if I do this one small thing. Instead of running around like a chicken with my head chopped off....I have everything at my fingers all ready, pressed and clean. So...That is a start....Just the first step of many. I hope...LOL. Anyways.....Tomorrow Miss Kayla and I are going to get started on my Homemaking Binder. I sure am hoping that it will help me to become the kind of wife and mother I am both ment and want to become. And again....GOD HELP ME!!! Please wish me luck. Later Gaters! Kai..........Ps...I was going to put a cute picture with this post, but I can't get silly Blogger to work with me...UGH. Maybe I will figure out why later, but I'm too tired right now. Night! Kai!!!

So far today......

It's been a few days since my last post. So I thought I should maybe pop my head in here and make a drop a quick note. Mark is out job hunting and he has an interview with Bank One on Wednesday.....PLEASE!!! Keep him in your prayers that he will find something soon!
We had a BBQ dinner on Friday at church. I took some shredded pork with homemade sauce and a pumpkin cake....they both went over very well. And we had alot of fun. I took the kids to see The Santa Clause 3 on Saturday. It was cute and they enjoyed the outing. Right now I am tring to get caught up on the Laundry. I am hoping to get it all washed and sorted through with the summer clothes put away by Friday. It's going to take me at least that long. I have alot to do.....4 full to overflowing hampers. UMMMMM.....I am also going to start on making some Christmas stuff too. Exactly what I'm not sure yet, but I am going to pull out my fabric and patterns and go through and find things to make, cuz it's gonna be a lean one this year. I know I have the stuff to make the kids each a set of pj's and a bath robe. I also need to think of things to make Marks family as well. I did that last year and it was a ton of fun. I am going to make candy and baked goods as usual..... but I haven't decided on what just yet. I am thinking about doing some homemade hot chocolate mix. We'll see. Everything is kind of up in the air at the moment. Okay....my break is over....back to the laundry. Later Gaters....Love, Kristen Kai!

IT'S OVER!!!...THANK HEAVEN!!!

Yesterday was a whole lot of fun!!! But I can tell ya....I sure am glad that it is over!!! I finished Brittany's costume around 4pm then she came over to get into it and ready for the DECA thing at the High School. Which we decided to go to for a while since it was SOOOOOOO cold outside. The kids looked really cute and had alot of fun. Then after the carnival at the HS we went to Marks parents house and Trick or Treated over in that neighborhood. My MIL loves to see the kids in their costumes and gets such a huge kick out of it. But as I said before I am glad that it is over.

Well...today is the first of the month and I have my FS allotment. It came to be $740 for the 6 of us. It's alot! And I can use it. That's for sure. I am going to start getting supplies for Christmas baking and candy making. I started the other day making plans for it. This morning I did my once a month Aldi shop. It it a great place to stock up on staples. We aren't to fond of any of their meat products, but I get things like chicken and beef on sale at Albertsons...which I also went to this am and got some assorted pork steaks that we will be having for dinner with a nice big salad and jazzed up stuffing. So far I have spent $121 at the two stores, but I won't have to go to Aldi's again until the 1st of Dec. I still need to get some things at Walmart that I don't get anywhere else...like deli meat and such. I also want to go to the bakery outlet, but I may not do that until tomorrow. We'll see. So for now I have $621 for the rest of the month.

Oh.....of subject...just to let y'all know. Dh had one interview with a personel placement office yesterday and they are going to try to place him back with a bank!!!!! He is really excited. He really likes working in a more professional setting. But he also had an interview with Kohls this afternoon....and he said if they offer him a possition he will go ahead and take it cuz we need money now....but it will just be a stop gap measure until Express Personel comes through with something else.....So things are definitely looking up! Keep us in your prayers.....Thanks!!! Later Gaters, Kai!

Pleasent Sunday

For once I actually had a pleasent Sunday. Usually they stress me out something awful...but I was a good girl and planned ahead and got everything ready last night. Seems that I am much more able to do the things I should/want to do lately. I think my meds are finally working....LOL. Anyway.... I enjoyed going to church and actually got something out of it for once. Emma went to the nursery and stayed in it without much trouble after she got over her initial reaction. I even got a short nap after all was said and done. Only about 45 min, but better than nothing and it did me alot of good. I took Joshua to work and got some biscuits from the store so I can make biscuits, gravey, eggs and grits for dinner. Sounded good to me. I am hoping to get a bunch done on Britany's costume tonight. I am actually feeling pretty good for once in my life....LOL. Later Gaters, Kai!

Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow.....

Well....I spent Tuesday with a friend eating lunch and doing some shopping at the store...then we talked for the rest of the afternooon. I did manage to get my counter cleaned off and Emma's costume cut out before I went to bed that night. So...I did manage to accomplish something that day.

Yesterday I spent the whole day sewing....and I did manage to finish the costume just in time to get it on her and out the door to go trunk or treat at the church. It was fun...but hectic. The upside being I am finished and when it's time to trick or treat on next Tuesday I don't have to worry about it..... The down side is I still have to make one for Joshua's girlfriend, Brittney. UGH! Oh well....at least the counter is already clean and it is also red and black like Emma's ladybug.

I overslept this am and didn't get Caleb and Hannah off to school...... I'm sooooo bad! But I was sooooo tired that I just didn't get up. I turned the alarm clock off, then layed back down......just for a minuet don't ya know....and didn't get up until 10am. That's when Emma woke me up. So now they are home for the day. But that's ok....no big deal. It isn't gonna kill them.

My goal for today is to get my dishes done and Brittney's costume cut out. I have until Monday to do it, but I don't wanna be cramming it in if I can help it. Dinner is Hamburger Gravey over mashed potatoes. We are running low on food at the moment and that is what I have on hand. Our next FS alotment isn't until next Wednesday and I am hoping that they will have our loss of income on there and it will be bigger. I can do with what we get now, but it is easier with more....of course. UGH...I sound so greedy...but I'm not! Just worried. Please pray for us! We really need the help. Later Gaters.....Love, Kai.

I'm starting a journal. I am striving for alot of things and thought it might be good to start writing things down and seeing if I can find somekind of focus. Right now my big goal is to get this house in order. It has been out of wack for so very long and it's time to be a grown up and do the things I am supposed to do. So...here goes! Wish me luck!

Today I did about 8 loads of the mountain of laundry I have to do. I also worked on the bathroom a bit. It isn't done by a long shot, but it's better than it was and will probably be finished tomorrow. I need to buy a new toilet brush.....where to other one went I have no clue, but went to clean the bowl and it was missing. I also need a trash can for in there. I'm kinda tired of paper rolls and trash all over the floor. Going to get them tomorrow. I still have much more laundry to do and a bunch to be put away, but I need to spend some time cleaning my room before I can put anything away. I do have it all in a basket however.

Tomorrow.....big goal is cleaning off the crap counter and get busy on Emma's costume. I have to have it done by Wed evening....UGH. I should have been working on that today, but I got busy doing other things. I am going to have to find some time to defrost the freezer so I can pull out meat for meals...UGH again!!! It has frosted over and I can't get at our food. HEY....maybe I can talk Mark into doing it since he isn't working at the moment. Tomorrow is also my counseling appt. that's at 11am. Okay...dinner??? UMMMM.......Chicken fettuccini I think...if I can get to the chicken tenders that is...LOL. Okay...I'm off for now. I'm tired and need to put the food away and finish filling the delapadated dishwasher. Later Gaters, Kai!

Rough times ahead....

It is a bad time of year to be out of work. We have the holidays comming up and several birthdays in December, but we now find ourselves once again without income. I am praying for a miracle....please pray for me! I really really need it right now. My husband lost his job today. And now I am worried about so many things I can't even think. I think I shall drown my sorrows in some PUMPKIN CAKE and diet be damned. Later Gaters, Kai.

My crazy life.....

Things have been kinda crazy around here the past several weeks. We were going to move to Colorado....and I was so busy working on getting ready for that, that I didn't get on here much, but it fell through and we are still in Oklahoma. I am very upset about it, but I know everything has a reason. I was looking forward to getting into a nice big house (the reason we were gonna move was the availability of a 5 bedroom house for lease option). I am sad about that, but I wasn't happy about having to pull Josh out of his Senior year in High School. But anyway.....we stayed and are just going through everyday stuff. I was able to get Hannah in a dance class. She is so thrilled and she looks to adorable in her little outfit and ballet shoes! They have changed my antidepressant from Lexapro to Prozac. I am hoping this will work better and not give me a tummy ache. Well.....I gotta take Caleb to Scouts here in a few minuets, so I gotta go finish dinner and feed the kids. Later Gaters, Kai!

I'm back....

I have finally gotten all better from my ear infection. Took a long while for it to go 100% away, but it finally has. Not much else to tell at the moment. We are gearing up for the new school year and just trying to withstand this heat. I haven't been online much. I have started taking anti-depressant meds, but they aren't working....yet. I am hoping to feel better soon. I just really need to get my act in gear. Life just isn't any fun and I need to do alot of things and just cannot make myself get up and do them. Well...that's about it. Later Gaters, Kai.

Labyrinthitis

I am down and out....I have something called Labyrinthitis. It is an infection of the cochlea in the inner ear. It is causing me some major dizziness and sent me to the ER a few days ago. I am having a hard time sitting at the computer screen for very long cuz it doesn't help with the dizzies! So I may be gone for a while longer until I am feeling better. Take care y'all. I will check in when I can. Later Gaters, Kai.

5 things about me....

I been tagged by Dawn with a 5 thing about me meme......

5 things in my fridge...

There's alot in there right now cuz I did alot of shopping this weekend, so I'll pick a few I don't usually have.....

1. Cherries
2. Fresh Parmesean Cheese
3. Zuccini
4. Lots of deli meat and cheese
5. Kids Yogurt

5 things in my closet.....

1. Boxes of fabric
2. Boxes of patterns
3. Boxes of keepsake stuff
4. Hannah's porceline dolls for when she has her own room
5. Clothes and shoes

5 things in my purse.....

1. Diapers
2. Butt wipes
3. Several backup pacifiers
4. Zipper bag with my money and cards
5. Sugar free gum for the kids

5 things in my car....

1. Car seat
2. Various cups and fast food trash....LOL
3. Jumper cables
4. Magizines and mail
5. My change can

5 people I'm gonna tag....
Anyone that decides to read my blog...LOL.

Gotta go make dinner......Later Gaters, Kai.

I have a Crush!

I'm in love....or at least in lust. I have a secret crush. Don't tell my hubby. There is someone that I just really dig and get the biggest kick out of. Luckily.... there is absolutely no way in the world I'd ever meet him, much less get to even speak to him...EVER. This person is a celebrity. Now...a little bit about me. I just HATE people that go ga ga over celebrity. They bug the crap out of me, but I really DIG this guy. Now....I don't think I would ever, you know, like, faint or anything, if I ever got to meet him, but I'd be a very happy little camper. Secondly...I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE.....Food network. When the kids aren't watching Cartoon network or a movie, I almost always have it on. And if you don't get cable or satellite tv, boy are you missing out. So...here's the deal. When we first got cable I really liked Racheal Ray, then Emeril was ok, but I don't like him much any more. The person I relate to most is Paula Deen, but my favorite.....absolute favorite food personality is....drum roll please..... (((((((ALTON BROWN)))))))!!!!! Okay...now, he isn't 100% perfect, but I just get the biggest kick out of him! I especially love his show GOOD EATS!!! It's such a well done, entertaining, and informative program. Very clean...in everyway. And I have learned so much from watching it over the past few years. Anyway....I made a recipe I saw late last night for dinner today and it turned out soooo Yummy that I just had to share. It was CHICKEN FRIED STEAK. Now...living in Oklahoma for the last 13 years I HAVE made CFS before, and it has always been good, but this one was way great! My dh wanted it after watching the episode on CUBE STEAK . After reading the recipe you will see he cubed his own steaks...but I didn't do that. I found some that looked pretty good and used pre-cubed steaks from the store. The other thing I did was I added seasoning to the dredging flour. Salt, pepper, garlic powder and a pinch of chyenne pepper. I did this cuz that is how I make my fried chicken and thought it'd be better, and it was! Anyway, if you get a chance....take a look at Alton Brown and some of his recipes or shows. They are very entertaining and informative. By the way...it's my 8 year old son's favorite show too!......... OH!!! AB (Alton Brown) has a new show launching later this month called FEASTING ON ASPHALT. It looks like alot of fun and I can't wait to watch! Hope you will to! Later Gaters, Kai!