Cutie Patootie

I have a very busy day today. Caleb has a birthday party after school, and I am going to have to do a bunch of driving around. I am tired and still sick. I sure hope I can kick this really soon.
Emma is getting so big and is just too cute. She says several words and learns new things every day. She says "Eeths" for Please. And "DaDoo" for Thank you. She also says, Josh, Dadda, Momma, Uh Oh, NOOO, and yes, GaKar for cracker and Up when she wants up. I love just watching babys learn and grow. It is such fun. She also "shakes a booty", waggles her butt with the music. LOL. She loves to sit on daddy's lap and listen to music he has on the computer. It is her favorite evening past time. Kai

Sick, Sicker, Sickerest.....

Last week was pretty rough. I have 3 of 4 kids on antibiotics now. I ended up taking all 4 to the dr last Wednesday and Caleb and Hannah both had Strep throat and Emma has an ear infection. I also have a sore throat, so I suspect that I, too, have strep. But there is no money or insurance so I can go to the dr....so unless I get super duper sick I am just gonna have to stick it out and try to fight it on my own. I have been taking Echinecea and that seems to be helping some. Caleb missed all week of school last week, and is behind in his homework....he is not a happy camper. Now he is crying at me cuz he can't go out to play since it is taking him so long to do his homework. I feel for the kid, but it shouldn't take him 3 hrs to do this work. He is too smart to sit here for so long. Anyway.........I am off to finish dinner. Later, Kai.

Deeper

My depression has gotten deeper over the last week. I have been having a hard time doing just minor things. I can't seem to get my big butt off the couch and do the things I am supposed to be doing. I can't stand the kids, I can't stand my husband, I can't stand myself. I am just so down and out at the moment. I am trying to pull myself up, but it is rough. Having sick kids doesn't help. Emma has a horrid runny nose and Hannah was home Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday from school with a sore throat, and now her lips are super duper chapped and bleeding. Caleb is coughing as well. I am glad school is back in, but seems as soon as it starts the kids get sick. I don't think I can handle another winter cold and flu season like last years. I swear we were in the dr office twice a month. I have bought some disinfectant wipes to wipe down grocery carts and small GermX for hands to carry in my purse. I am going to take the kids to get flu shots next week. They have been saying on the news it is supposed to be a rough flu year. We are ALL going to get them this year. I have never had one, but I think I will break down and get one anyway. Emma is sooo suseptable to ear infections that I really want to keep her well if I can. If we got through this year what we did last year I am going to make sure they put tubes in her ears. I don't want a deaf child if I can prevent it at all!!!
Anyway, I have laundry going and am about to get the DW running. I may go through fabric and see what I can make for Christmas gifts. It will be a homemade year. Cash is in short supply, and will be for a while. Maybe if I do some crafting I will feel a bit better. I know I'd like to make pj's and robes for all the kids. I can even make a robe for Mark. That'd be fun! Well, off project hunting after I do the dishes and get dinner in the oven. Salmon...YUMMY! Your prayers are welcome to help me thru this. Thanks alot!! Kai

Oh so tired....

I am having a hard time lately. I have been really tired and I hurt an awful lot. The carpal tunnel in my hands is getting worse. It makes it really difficult to do alot of things. I have so much that I need to do, but no energy to do them. I have been striving to get the house in better shape and be a more peaceful place. The more I try the harder it seems to do. I am STILL behind on the laundry. I do it for a couple of days then get tired of it and stop for a couple of days. I know I need to keep doing it so it'll get done, but I just can't seem to keep going until it's done. I get one thing done then go back and find it a mess again just a few hours later. It's driving me NUTS. Josh and I are having run in after run in. He seems to think it is ok to only do half of what he is told to do, and then thinks being punished for not doing what he is supposed to is unfair.....UGH!!! I am not to fond of teenagers right now!!! Well, enough complaining. I am going to go now and try to get something done before I have to go get daddy from work. Later, Kai.

Hurricane Katrina

Hurricane Katrina has hit and has really done a number on the gulf coast! The city of New Orleans is devastated as is most of Louisiana and Mississippi. I feel so bad for these people and wish I could do something to help. I can't donate money, for we have none right now. I would like to give time and maybe some things we have around here, but not sure where to do that at. I feel so helpless. I pray so hard these people will be able to pull themselves up and build a new, better life. I sure hope to find something I can do to help. This I pray in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen!