UGH

Yesterday was another bad day. My head hurt sooo much from coughing so hard all day I couldn't even think by the time Mark got home from work. He took the kids to get pizza for dinner as I couldn't get my butt up to make any. I still haven't figured out what to make today. I am going to go to the store here in a bit and see what I can come up with. I have been so down lately that I just don't want to do anything at all. I want to curl up in a corner and just disapear. I am not sure what my problem is. I go in these spurts where I just want to spaz out and get everything done. Then there are days I can't even get my butt off the couch. Unfortunately the later is more common. I think right now it is cuz I have been sick with this damn head crap for so long. One of these days I will get my shit together and have a livable home and a happy family instead of a shit hole and cranky family. Oh well...I need to get off my ass and stop feeling sorry for myself. I am trying to cut out junk food and soda as much as possible and am jonesing for some so bad it isn't funny. I may break down and have 1 coke later. I don't know. I am sick of beign fat as well as everything else. Not sure if I should care or not. Pretty sure Mark would rather puke than touch me...so I suppose I should do something. Well...off I go to get the girls to school and make a trip to Wally World. Kai

Rough days

The past few days have been rough. I have a sinus infection and don't feel well. I didn't make it to church, and am dissapointed about that. We had to get rid of the dead Ford that has been sitting on our parking pad for the last 2 years. That was a crisis, but it is over now. Pull Apart paid us $75 for it, so we have that $ to work with now.
I am trying to get a party together for Josh and Emma's birthdays and wondering where the money for that is going to come. I am doing a picnic in the park. We are going to BBQ hot dogs and the kids are going to have a water fight. They love doing that! Josh is turing 16 and it'll be Emma's first birthday. I made up an invitation to it, but Josh doesn't want to give it to his friends. I am kinda bummed about that. Oh well...he's a teenager. What can I say. I already got him his present. We got him a membership to the gym. That is all he's gonna get. Not sure what I am gonna get Emmers yet. I am sure I will figure something out.
Well....off I go to try to accomplish something today. Later Gater.

Saturday is a special day....

Well today is a busy day. We got up and going early and cashed my check from Loretta. Then made a trip to Sam's club...LOVE THAT PLACE!!! Anyway got some things there we needed along with come reduced pork ribs so we are having those bbq'ed in the oven with some oven fries and broccoli. Easy peasy. I am having a rough allergy day...so is everyone....especially Emma. Have had to give her her inhailer lastnight and this morning. I feel so bad she is having such a hard time. I haven't been able to keep her well for more than a week all winter. I hope she gets better and stays better soon.
Marks new dosage of medicine is kicking in now and he is in a pretty good mood today. I am so grateful for modern medicine. He is fixin' to go to the store for me to get me some boxes so I can work on straightening my bedroom and get ready to have a yard sale soon. We have toooooo much JUNK around here and it is time to go through it and get rid of some!
Next chore is to find and prepare church clothes for tomorrow. I am hoping to make it this week. I am not 100% sure yet. It depends on how MEE MEE feels. I have been having a difficult time making it to church the past several months cuz of one sick person or the other. As long as she isn't coughing too bad I think I am going to go ahead and go. So off to make sure everyone's clothes are all washed and pressed. Kai

Snickerdoodles

UGGGGHHHH.....Baking up a storm! I made a lemon bunt cake with a lemon glaze and garnished with lemon twists for Caleb to give to PSO for the spring fling. Now I am in the middle of baking a double batch of Snickedoodles for Hannah to take. Everyone seems to really like my snickerdoodles and I had everything I needed for them....Except I used margarine instead of butter...They are better with butter, but I don't think kids will tell the diff. So I am still baking but only have one batch to put in the oven. It is 11...That means time to feed the girls and get them ready for school. Have no clue what to make for lunch. Probably grilled cheese. Works for me. Plus Sammy likes em and will eat em. Sooooo....grilled cheese it is. I should get back. Need to try to do up the dishes before Mark gets home. Kai

Round and Round we go...

Had a rough/bad night again! Went to bed at 9:30 but didn't get Emma to lay down until after 10. That was ok, but I woke at somewhere around 2 and didn't get back to sleep until after 5:30. Then had to get up to get S&D at 6:30....then Caleb up and off at 7:30. Needless to say I am dragin tail today! I took the boys to school today so I could pick up a cake mix at WM. The school is having their Spring Fling tomorrow and 1st graders need to bring a cake and PreK needs cookies. So I will be baking all morning. That, ironing marks shirt, getting cake in oven and getting caffine in me is all I have done so far. Emmie is still asleep so I should get off this thing and make up snickerdoodle dough! BUT I DON'T WANNA!!! What I really want to do is go back to bed, but that ain't gonna happen any time soon I suppose. I have to get the cake and cookies done before I take the girls to school at 12:30....so off I go I guess. Later Gater!

Taking a Crap

I just love not being able to take a crap in peace. I understand it is all part of being the MOMMY, but couldn't I at least have the human dignity of going to the toilet alone once in a while. I take her with me most of the time and when I make her sit on the floor she screams at me and when I let her come to me she puts her face or hands in my crotch! I leave her out the door and she screams at me through it. So irritating. I can't even cook in peace...she is at my heals and knees fussing and in my way. If Josh is here and not busy he will hold her for me, but otherwise I am tripping over her and worried about hurting her....is there no end? How do I deal with this clingon?

One Good Loookin' Guy...Joshua Joseph-Mark 15 1/2 

Her royal highness...The princess herself...Hannah Michelle-Nicole 5. 

4 Great kids...Josh 15 1/2, Caleb 6, Hannah 5, and Emmaleigh 6 months 

Handsome dude....Caleb Matthew-Emert almost 7.

Mark and Kristen Ashby....Married Jan 18, 1988 

We are a happy family....The Ashbys. November 2004 

What a pretty baby....Emmaleigh 6 months